My German blog on meditation, self-experience and spirituality was nominated for the Liebster Award. I am very happy and answered some fun questions about my blog and myself. I took on the extra effort to write an English translation too, so you guys can read it as well. Enjoy. Benjamin

The Mellowmind Experience

I had an already fantastic day yesterday, when word reached me that toe and cao, whose passion and creativity drive their blog winkelbauer nominated my blog for the 2016 Liebster Award. I am very happy and very grateful for this nomination and the opportunity to participate in this global initiative. Since this blog usually is in German, you can check the German version here.

All English speakers, please check out my English blog, which features some of the same material translated and additonal stuff on mental health, esoterics and spirituality. 

You want to find out what this blog and I am about? The why and what?Give this article a good read and let me share some things with you. We might actually win something :-). If you want to skip the intro and go the interview, scroll a bit.

That it is actually toe and cao who nominated…

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You, my dear, are a creator – and you are perpetually in the throes of artistic design. Even now, as you read these words, you are crafting a masterpiece of such proportions that it will take an entire lifetime to complete. Your every inhale is like the whisper of a pen over paper. Your every […]

via The Sculptor of Your Life — Journeys in Spirit

Good morning. Sipping my coffee, inhaling non-spiritual fumes and enjoying myself and my optimized Facebook feed (I unsubscribed a lot of stuff) I stumbled across this video.

It is a conversation between JP Sears and The Lifetarian. I know JP from his funny videos and we digitally exchanged appreciation and understanding when he reacted to two or three of my comments. I did not know The Lifetarian but from the way he asks questions, makes conversation and a quick scan of his video titles and video thumbnails I can say “I Like”. I will definitely have a look at his work. His question about “How is your day? How people structure their day tells me a lot about their magick.” really hit home with me.

So check these guys out. Now the video. “Momentum Conversation”. This one has a lot of it and then some. I love it. It so down to earth, so relaxing, so honest. They just tell it as it is.

Let me introduce JP again. JP Sears is very successful with his funny “How to be Ultra Spiritual” videos. Already, these videos contain a lot of great information on how to look honestly into the mirror and become aware of our perceptual gaps when it comes to viewing yourself.

He has a number of great “serious” videos on his YouTube Channel.

I recommend his videos on narcissim and self-sabotage since I think many spiritual people, beginning with myself, have a wagonload of both.

Convincing oneself of talking to Archangel Michael or adopting the view “You are the Creator” takes a lot of ego and a lot of narcissim. This is not a bad thing at all. I mean, this ego-driven dynamic drives spiritual development up to a certain point. The way “mainstream spirituality” is marketed always pushes two buttons. Self-grandiosity and very childish needs. That is ok too.

Self-sabotage is widespread two, especially among new-agers. Money is bad, success is bad, bad feelings are bad, being among low-vibration people is bad, a partner will limit my free spirit.

Been there, done that as well.

This system of belief can become very stable over time, especially if you begin to press the send button and work with people based on the incomplete awareness (master apprentice view). Outside bravado, a great fan base, followers become the currency with which you stabilize your inherently unstable system. Not so good in my view, but in my experience, an inescapable stepping stone and recurring theme you can work with.

This video is about that. Funny and true. Oh, now I repeated myself.

Have a great day




I just realized that without my dog Yoshi, who passed away last Christmas, I would never have learned the meaning of unconditional love.

His passing left me with a profound feeling of sadness and grief. Seeing him die tore my heart apart. But the memory of his love for me and my love for him mended all the wounds.

I still cry, I still miss him. And I thank him for the lessons he teaches me, even after his physical form perished.

The voice of my dog really is the voice of God. To me at least.

Farewell my brother. See you soon.

Für Tina, Herz aus Gold! Mir ist eben bewusst geworden, dass der Blog ausschließlich an dich addressiert war. Lies Ihn aus dieser Perspektive und scheu dich nicht bei einigen Formulierungen nachzuhaken.Herzlichen Glückwunsch zum Geburtstag.

Homer Simpson

Servants to All


In Lust und Schmerz
Vor Freude blutend
Im Leid lacht mein Herz
Du bist mein Spiegel
Geliebtes Menschenkind
Du bist das Siegel
Auf das ewig verbunden wir sind
Liebe und Schmerz

Liebe und Schmerz zwillingsgleich
Umranken der Zeiten gnadenlos Spiel
Die Liebe so warm und weich
Der Schmerz so kalt und of zuviel

Die Liebenden suchen ewig umschlungen
Nach dem Feuer das den Schmerz verdrängt
Sie schreien, bitten, flehen unumwunden
Beschwören Schönheit, Ausgleich, Friede für sie

Auf dieser Welt kann nur eins es geben
Den Schmerz hineinzusaugen in die Brust
Und mit jedem Atemzug nach außen
Des gemeinsamen Glückes Weben

So soll es sein
So wird es sein
So ist es
Denn wir sind unser Schicksal!
Und unsere Liebe unser Prüfstein!

Denn wir bestimmen unser Glück allein.

Kein Schmerz mehr.
Nur Liebe.

Ich liebe dich

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(MY first attempt at Dadaism ;-);-);-))

Interviewer: John Dandy (a.k.a Junior)
Interviewee: God (Robert Stark)

John Dandy: Well, finally, God has given us the right to broadcast the following interview and…
God: Given, Junior, Given??? I didn’t give you anything. You did!Rob Stark: Behead the Idiot already and be done with it. I have a dragon to catch.

Enters the Fool (a.k.a Benjamin): SHUT THE FUCK UP ABOUT IT AND STOP WHINING LIKE LITTLE PRISSIES OVER WHAT IS YELLOW AND WHAT IS GREEN. WHO REALLY CARES? i Certainly dont give a shit! And I am still alive. So that shit has to work for everyone.

And so the Fool continued his rant until John, God and Robert were completely worn down. He is a good man, that fool. Really. And in that intention, he feels it is necessary to initiate a massive, preventive strike against all idiocy in this world with the full force of his wrath, which does not exist.

How can you be sure he is not in impostor? IMPOSTOR??? Well, he doesn’t care about appearances, so neither should you.

He kindly asks you to consider the 10 Commandment crap he wrote earlier as null and void and issues a new book called: “The Only Commandment”. It is completely blank, which is the joke. And since he is the Fool. LALALALA

And so the Lord sayeth: Let there be only one commandment added to the 10 so far.
11: Always be true to yourself

The writer of this text is very bold and fearful at the same time. He has a bipolar tendency. That might include killing youself for no reason etc. Luckily. After pressing the “Publish” button, the writer will be healed, thereby remedying all states. I hand the staff to whoever wants it. I really dont wanna do that 😉


I hereby affirm wholy and compelely that I wrote this out of my free will as a child of God.


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